During my life in the Netherlands I wanted to fit in and went out of my way to achieve this. As I grew older I learned to recognize what others needed so well that I had forgotten what my needs were.

I went out with friends, met a nice boy, we lived together and later on got married. I worked for a large insurance company. This was okay for many years until our children were born and I discovered that I actually didn’t know myself at all. I was missing something essential and that left me sad and angry. It felt empty and full at the same time and I was depressed and went through two burn-outs and a lot of physical issues.

I wanted to go back to England to start over because I didn’t feel connected to life, I couldn’t feel my roots and felt as if I had left a piece of me behind in England. This was the start of my quest as to who I am and why I am here on Earth. I discovered my extra sense of sight, feeling and knowing things, but in the beginning that was more confusing than helpful.